I'm here. Busy, but here. Present. Living life and blogging about it.
I have missed blogging this week. I have taken longer breaks before, but almost always by choice. I don't like having things to say and not having the time to say them. And I know I have no one to blame but myself, but still...
This is my 501st post. It sort of feels like a big deal to me. That means I have written something or chosen a picture to share and clicked that "publish" button FIVE HUNDRED times. And in doing so, this little blog has become part of who I am. Does that mean I'm a "real" blogger now?
A couple of years ago at a birthday party, it came up during introductions that I have a blog. The sweet lady I was being introduced to enthusiastically asked, "Oh! What kind of blog do you have?" I didn't really know how to answer and I think I just mumbled something like "Oh, just a blog about my life."
Clearly she thought I was a "blogger." I don't really see myself that way. I'm more of just another mom with a blog. Is there really a distinction?
Sometimes I forget why I blog. It may not be clearly evident in the way I ramble on about whatever comes to mind, but I can actually be quite shy. More than once I have had trouble clicking that publish button because I'm afraid of sharing something I've written. Then, I remind myself that it's for my kids. It keeps me writing when I remember that. These are their stories as much as they are mine. And even when I write a big complaining post about not getting enough sleep or too much poop to deal with, it's still for them. Many times, when going through difficult times, I have asked my mom how she felt when she was in my position. But that was thirty years ago and she doesn't always remember. So, girls, when I'm complaining about you, that's for you thirty years from now when you're dealing with your own little treasures of sleepless nights and tantrums.
With that thought in mind, I will have to find a new balance in my life. One that includes picture taking and writing and yes, blogging. Because I want to keep this place alive at least a little bit longer.
Love that last pic of the two girls, truly shows theory individual personalities!
ReplyDeleteTotally agree. :) It's hilarious really. I think if I were to add up all my posts it is in like the 20's or 30's, not such an avid blogger here so congratulations to you!
ReplyDeleteGlad you are doing this for the girls. My mom was a wealth of family info but she thought she would write about it when she retired. Well she retired alright, but to the grave and in her 50's, so the info is lost for the most part. I have started a binder with just notes as I think about things. Like..."The Oil painting in the dining room that S>R painted was for a picture frame her mother (F>F) had purchased and really liked it and wanted a painting of a bouquet of flowers, so for a gift one year, my mother painted it for her" That is it, but a memory none the less. I am going around my house looking for memories to write down while I still remember them.
ReplyDelete.....MC....did i just kinda blog????